Remembering…

I'm generally not one to do any of the traditional start of the new year rituals or resolutions. Besides not wanting to do what everyone else is doing, I resist doing things I can’t sustain as that creates stress and self judgment. Once or twice I have done a vision board to see what it was all about (with apparent impact). Sometimes I choose to recommit to my exercise practice (like this year). But one thing I have never done is choose a Word for the upcoming year. The past several years I have seen this become more popular and it has seemed powerful enough for some of my friends who engage in this ritual. I have never done it and, as I said, tend to resist trendy practices. No judgment there BTW.

This year though, I could not help but feel a theme that has been pervasive this past year and continues to persist and nudge. It seems a word has chosen me and I do believe I need to honor this. The word is Remember. Yes, that is my word. Not likely one that is chosen often but that is just an assumption. Remember…

Remember what? What am I remembering? I am a think ahead kind of person. I am a planner. I am a problem solver. A predictor of what’s coming. Be prepared. Be on your game. Ya know - have some control. And, be in the moment as much as I can. Some of you likely know how this dance goes. 

Here’s the thing, remembering has been a challenge for me. I have a terrible memory. I can’t recall much detail. I haven’t been able to remember many events from growing up. Did I have birthday parties? I remember one. Did my sisters or parents play with me, read to me, talk with me, for example? I don’t have any memories of this. It must have happened though, right? Right? And I am terrible at remembering names. To the point of it being embarrassing. 

So why choose Remember as a word to focus on, you might ask? Well I did say it chose me…

This past year has been a year of healing and opening. That’s a different post about how that has occurred. But the result is what I want to share. I have been remembering.

For years, I have longed for a sense of understanding of my roots, my heritage, my lineage. I have felt an urge to connect with my ancestors. To know them. To feel them. This is where Remembering started and once it did, once I turned toward this, the floodgates of Remembering burst open. They have guided my path, I am certain of this. I have come to converse with them regularly now. I call upon them in the early hours, from my bed before my feet hit the floor. From my cushion. At times, through tears as explore inner shadows where the dragon resides. This has been their message:

Remember who you are.

You are an expression of the divine. 

You are a goddess, an expression of the feminine, the Great Mother who loves and nurtures and listens even if you have not known this firsthand.

Remember isolation. Remember the feelings of being alone. Abandoned. And remember you are never alone.

Remember you chose to be here. 

Remember your dharma, your purpose for being here. Your original instructions.

Remember the force within you longing to express and know her as Shakti.

Remember this,

You are not broken, at your core.

You are sacred. 

You ask what happened to you?

Nothing that is not a portal to knowing Truth.

Remember you are an alchemizer of energy of the emotions and thoughts that have clouded your wisdom and silenced her.

Remember anger and rage, their right to be here. Know their voice and allow it to transmute.

Remember your sovereignty and fiercely protect it for yourself and others like Goddess Macha.

Remember,

To trust yourself. 

To trust you are a healer like an ancient grandmother of your lineage, who knew the divine and magical wisdom of Gaia, the Sacred Mother of us all.

The womb from which you come.

Remember you are the witness who observes this character you have been playing. Know your authentic expression now.

Remember there is a force that wants us to forget, dedicated to destroying the feminine power of knowing and healing. It is losing power. She is rising. Know this. Do not be afraid. You are needed now as the contractions are getting stronger. Stay. Breathe. Trust. Bathe in sacred water. Allow.

Remember to keep opening the channels for Holy Remembrance to flow. You are an energetic being. Let it flow.

Remembering and reclaiming is a bold and arduous path. Open your heart to this and let the moonlight reach into your very being and light you up.

Dear girl, Remember Love.

(This post was originally posted to my Substack)